it's better to not know

and now i know for sure that i can be mean to people sometimes,
because when my feeling's hurt,
i don't feel like keeping it to myself,
i let it out,
in a way that,
people see as,

unease ,
hurtful ,
cruel,

i don't usually attack people,
i am being very defensive of myself,

because

all those years,
i kept it all,
inside,
without a trace,
all the unease, hurtful, cruel moments.

and i don't have a chance to be defensive.

at all.

and i hate those people whom treat me like shit.
that's why i want to at least try, to be nicer?
better.way better.

p/s: ini kes mulut celupar.hehe