I can be mad, angry and wants to kill you in one second, then I'll feel bad and guilty in the next second.
It is rather challenging because people/friends/family tends to look at you as the weak creature that easily get bullied by others or perhaps by them.
Oh yes, I have been bullied by my sisters as long I can remember back in where I was a kid.
But I just grew out of it.
A friend would always say "Ala, you/kau memang..bla bla bla..."
Well it hurts actually when someone said that, it makes me feels so small. And I would with all my might try to be "bigger" and be more "hard".
Well, that days is over.
I now, accept who I am, it is how I was build, it is how God has made me.
I'll deal with the guilt and regret but for now, that is it. I would rather not change.
It may be my weakness, but it is also my strength. Oh talking about how easily I forgive peoples in my life with just a single "sorry".
Ah, soft heart.